Love to me is commitment,
Believing that our kiss fifty years from now
Will be just like our first;
Love to me is honesty,
Not the duty of being transparent
But the truth of being open;
Love to me is security,
The ability to protect love--
Our greatest treasure;
Love to me is blind,
Freeing yourself to the darkness of imperfections
And letting the light of love guide you;
Love to me is compromise,
Building a bridge across difficulty,
Even though we may not see eye to eye;
Love to me is sacrifice,
Not merely the ability to surrender
But to surrender and trust wholeheartedly;
Love to me is patience,
And knowing that through love
We can outlast anything;
Love to me is God,
And a heart lost in Him
Has the ability to love forever.
[idk what this is about. or why. LOL]
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
Off Guard.
Today was an interesting day. I'm still trying to understand everything but idk... God will work a way, right? Heres a blog that I wrote for MySpace on April 21st, 2008. I just think its ironic how it applies to me right now. Holla.
I am blessed. When I really sit down and think about it, I've come so far in this life than most people have in their lifetimes. And its not that I've never known that I was blessed, but I guess it was the fact that I let my struggles and trials shadow my progressions. Consistently I find myself dwelling on things that I should just let go, and also worrying about things that are out of my control. I let my problems overcome me that I begin to believe that they are bigger than what they seem. I know God would never give me a situation He knows I cannot handle, and I know that each time I come through, I grow.
Yet lately I've let the stress and the problems in my life become larger than what they were, and I began to lose sight of where I was going. I worry a lot, and if things aren't done right by my way, I begin to worry. I worry when life gets out of hand for me, and then I also worry when life tumbles out of control for many people, especially for my family. I worry about my aiga a lot. I know its natural, but at the same time its frustrating to know that they DESERVE to be at a better place in this life, and I can't do anything to help them.
But right now I'm giving it up to the one who controls all things.... slowly but surely I'm beginning to realize that I CAN'T do everything myself; I've been worrying about so many things that have been out of my control, and the most, and the BEST thing I can do is offer it up to the Lord. He is my Rock and my Salvation, and He never ceases to bring me through. I can be extremely impatient, and I'm slowly finding out that GOD'S DELAYS ARE NOT DENIALS. Just because a prayer isn't answered immediately, does not mean that it is not going to be answered. God's timing is the best timing, and He will do what is needed for us when the time is right, all we have to do is believe.
I guess I'm writing this as a reminder to myself; when I go through the coming weeks, months and years ahead, to never look down upon myself but to always count on God. To realize that I am blessed every time I take a breath of fresh air, every time I wake up to a new day, and every time I see the beauty of another's smile... I am blessed. To never let my problems and circumstances overcome my goals and to not take so much upon myself. If God put you to it, He will bring you through it.
:)
For those of you with finals, I hope you guys get through them with ease. Don't get too stressed out and remember that either way, it will all be over soon.
PEACE.
I am blessed. When I really sit down and think about it, I've come so far in this life than most people have in their lifetimes. And its not that I've never known that I was blessed, but I guess it was the fact that I let my struggles and trials shadow my progressions. Consistently I find myself dwelling on things that I should just let go, and also worrying about things that are out of my control. I let my problems overcome me that I begin to believe that they are bigger than what they seem. I know God would never give me a situation He knows I cannot handle, and I know that each time I come through, I grow.
Yet lately I've let the stress and the problems in my life become larger than what they were, and I began to lose sight of where I was going. I worry a lot, and if things aren't done right by my way, I begin to worry. I worry when life gets out of hand for me, and then I also worry when life tumbles out of control for many people, especially for my family. I worry about my aiga a lot. I know its natural, but at the same time its frustrating to know that they DESERVE to be at a better place in this life, and I can't do anything to help them.
But right now I'm giving it up to the one who controls all things.... slowly but surely I'm beginning to realize that I CAN'T do everything myself; I've been worrying about so many things that have been out of my control, and the most, and the BEST thing I can do is offer it up to the Lord. He is my Rock and my Salvation, and He never ceases to bring me through. I can be extremely impatient, and I'm slowly finding out that GOD'S DELAYS ARE NOT DENIALS. Just because a prayer isn't answered immediately, does not mean that it is not going to be answered. God's timing is the best timing, and He will do what is needed for us when the time is right, all we have to do is believe.
I guess I'm writing this as a reminder to myself; when I go through the coming weeks, months and years ahead, to never look down upon myself but to always count on God. To realize that I am blessed every time I take a breath of fresh air, every time I wake up to a new day, and every time I see the beauty of another's smile... I am blessed. To never let my problems and circumstances overcome my goals and to not take so much upon myself. If God put you to it, He will bring you through it.
:)
For those of you with finals, I hope you guys get through them with ease. Don't get too stressed out and remember that either way, it will all be over soon.
PEACE.
Friday, December 5, 2008
All Night Again.
So I'm pulling another all nighter. Detrimental? I guess. Productive? At most instances. Fun? FCUK YEAH! :) Especially if you're staying up with a bunch of naturally equipped crackheads! Haha.
Here is one of my favorite quotes from our crazy "study group."
"Is it shoplifting if you rape a prostitute?" -- Andrea G.
LMAO! The laughs will keep coming. This night is going to be something! HAHA.
Here is one of my favorite quotes from our crazy "study group."
"Is it shoplifting if you rape a prostitute?" -- Andrea G.
LMAO! The laughs will keep coming. This night is going to be something! HAHA.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Polynesian.
So it irritates me (just a little bit) when people NOT of Polynesian descent try and give me a (small) lecture and even try and argue with me on matters concerning anything Polynesian, particularly history. It also irks me even more when people of Polynesian decent try and argue with me and they're wrong, and they continue to insist that they're right. So I'm doing all of you a favor and giving you a little history lesson of the largest "nation" on Earth.
The ancestors of the Polynesian people, several historians argue, came out of Southeast Asia, more along the ways of Taiwan, etc. Though their origins are still up to argument and dispute, these peoples made their way across the Pacific Ocean to settle in what is known as the "Heart of Polynesia," where the people and culture we recognize today as "Polynesian" was slowly born. The exact location of the "Heart of Polynesia" presently remains a hot debate topic. Samoans claim it to be Samoa and Tongans claim it to be Tonga. However, many historians believe (and I peacefully concur), that the "Heart of Polynesia" consists of the three islands of Fiji, Tonga and Samoa. The histories, legends and lineages of these three islands are so intricately connected that it is hard to distinguish exactly which one was "the first" Polynesian island. The people who populated these islands, isolated for over a few thousand years, slowly became the ancestors of the Polynesian people.
After about 3,000 years or so, these first Polynesians began migrating from the heart to other parts of the Ocean. Although a definite reason why isn't known, it is speculated that war, shortage of land, food and supplies, and simply the urge to explore, led these seafarers to continue to explore and populate a huge part of the largest Ocean on earth. So the basic route of discovery that these early Polynesian discoverers took, agreed upon by most historians, kind of goes something like this:
From the "Heart" the early Polynesians sailed to, discovered and settled what is now known as Tahiti and the Marquesas Islands, in the rough center of what is now known as the Polynesian Triangle. From this group of islands, they settled what is now known as the Cook Islands; then to the islands of Hawai'i in the north, the islands of Rapa Nui (commonly known as Easter Island) in the east and, eventually, the islands of Aotearoa (commonly known as New Zealand) in the west. Many ask, what is the Polynesian triangle? Well, with Hawai'i in the north, Rapa Nui in the East and Aotearoa in the West, you can basically draw out what the Westerners came to define as the Polynesian Triangle due to the close similarity of the hundreds of peoples, cultures, and languages of all the islands within this "triangle."
I consider Polynesia a nation because of the close relationship between the cultures, languages and peoples of these many islands. It is no surprise that a Tahitian could easily pick up and learn Hawaiian, or a Maori learn Samoan, or a Tongan to learn Samoan. Physically, Polynesians generally look the same and carry the same genetic markers. Our cultures, values and morals are also quite similar, and it is easy to adapt to and learn the customs of our sister-islands. In my opinion, Polynesians are one people with one language, which, over the years, became many people with many dialects.
The islands of Polynesia, though subject to Western influence and power, still proudly carry the culture, language and customs of our ancestors from thousands of years ago. And if you have any doubt about what you have just read here, take yourself to a library, sit your arse at a computer, check out some books and start reading. Because the next time you begin an assumption about Polynesia, I won't hesitate to cut you up.
:)
The ancestors of the Polynesian people, several historians argue, came out of Southeast Asia, more along the ways of Taiwan, etc. Though their origins are still up to argument and dispute, these peoples made their way across the Pacific Ocean to settle in what is known as the "Heart of Polynesia," where the people and culture we recognize today as "Polynesian" was slowly born. The exact location of the "Heart of Polynesia" presently remains a hot debate topic. Samoans claim it to be Samoa and Tongans claim it to be Tonga. However, many historians believe (and I peacefully concur), that the "Heart of Polynesia" consists of the three islands of Fiji, Tonga and Samoa. The histories, legends and lineages of these three islands are so intricately connected that it is hard to distinguish exactly which one was "the first" Polynesian island. The people who populated these islands, isolated for over a few thousand years, slowly became the ancestors of the Polynesian people.
After about 3,000 years or so, these first Polynesians began migrating from the heart to other parts of the Ocean. Although a definite reason why isn't known, it is speculated that war, shortage of land, food and supplies, and simply the urge to explore, led these seafarers to continue to explore and populate a huge part of the largest Ocean on earth. So the basic route of discovery that these early Polynesian discoverers took, agreed upon by most historians, kind of goes something like this:
From the "Heart" the early Polynesians sailed to, discovered and settled what is now known as Tahiti and the Marquesas Islands, in the rough center of what is now known as the Polynesian Triangle. From this group of islands, they settled what is now known as the Cook Islands; then to the islands of Hawai'i in the north, the islands of Rapa Nui (commonly known as Easter Island) in the east and, eventually, the islands of Aotearoa (commonly known as New Zealand) in the west. Many ask, what is the Polynesian triangle? Well, with Hawai'i in the north, Rapa Nui in the East and Aotearoa in the West, you can basically draw out what the Westerners came to define as the Polynesian Triangle due to the close similarity of the hundreds of peoples, cultures, and languages of all the islands within this "triangle."
I consider Polynesia a nation because of the close relationship between the cultures, languages and peoples of these many islands. It is no surprise that a Tahitian could easily pick up and learn Hawaiian, or a Maori learn Samoan, or a Tongan to learn Samoan. Physically, Polynesians generally look the same and carry the same genetic markers. Our cultures, values and morals are also quite similar, and it is easy to adapt to and learn the customs of our sister-islands. In my opinion, Polynesians are one people with one language, which, over the years, became many people with many dialects.
The islands of Polynesia, though subject to Western influence and power, still proudly carry the culture, language and customs of our ancestors from thousands of years ago. And if you have any doubt about what you have just read here, take yourself to a library, sit your arse at a computer, check out some books and start reading. Because the next time you begin an assumption about Polynesia, I won't hesitate to cut you up.
:)
All Night.
Been up all night. Semi-productivity. I'm going to be tired as fcuk today.... and cranky as hell. Shiet! ha!
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Down.
I'm not depressed. People like me DON'T get depressed. We make fun of the idiots who get depressed, but we don't get depressed. Not EVER. LOL. No, I'm in a recession. Just like Uncle Sam's economy. But on the real though, I can't help feeling the way I do. Shit just ain't looking up for me! I don't know, I guess I've been TELLING life what I want instead of ASKING... because I keep getting sidetracked off my game, my goals and my dreams. Yeah, Yeah, I know people are here for me. I got people who got my back, and don't get me wrong, I appreciate it, I really do. But I just wish I had a clone of myself so I could vent to myself about myself.... does that make sense? I don't give a fuck! People got my back but I'm wondering if they really got my heart. 'Cause at the end of the day that's all that matters. Seriously though, I'm really hoping and praying that the new semester brings better Karma for me, because this semester was a hella tough ride to go through. However, I'm grateful that even through all the grimy situations, the pain and the heartache, I'm still making it to class and making all this shit count.
Okay. This seriously was my most random post. Im out ---
Okay. This seriously was my most random post. Im out ---
Monday, December 1, 2008
Over it.
Stressing again. And no, its not because of finals. Believe me, I handle "finals stress" pretty well. Its the fact that fate decided to bring all my situations crashing down on me ON finals week! I wish my head were bigger so that I could distribute the worry evenly throughout it. I wish my heart were bigger so that I didn't feel this much pain all at one time. *sigh* Ah well. Everything comes to pass. I guess its the wait thats killing me, because Heaven knows I don't have the patience to see all of this shit play out. Ah well...
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