Monday, January 26, 2009

The Ant and the Grasshopper.... which are you?

Got this from a bulletin my friend posted on MySpace. Its funny AND has a unique yet often true view on life. ENJOY :)

The Ant and the Grasshopper
There is an 'Old Version' and a 'Modern Version' ..
Two Different Versions! Two Different Morals!

The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer,
building his house and laying up supplies for the winter.

The grasshopper thinks the ant is a fool and laughs and dances
and plays the summer away. Come winter, the ant is warm and well fed.

The grasshopper has no food or shelter, so he dies out in the cold.

MORAL OF THE STORY: Be responsible for yourself!


The ant works hard in the withering heat all summer ,
building his house and laying up supplies for the winter.

The grasshopper thinks the ant is a fool and laughs and dances
and plays the summer away.

Come winter, the shivering grasshopper calls a press conference and demands to know why the ant should be allowed to be warm and well fed while others are cold and starving.

CBS, NBC, PBS, CNN, and ABC show up to provide pictures of the shivering grasshopper next to a video of the ant in his comfortable home with a table filled with food. America is stunned by the sharp contrast.

How can this be, that in a country of such wealth, this poor grasshopper is allowed to suffer so?
Kermit the Frog appears on Oprah with the grasshopper, and
everybody cries when they sing , 'It's Not Easy Being Green.

Al Sharpton stages a demonstration in front of the ant's house
where the news stations film the group singing, ' We shall overcome.
Jesse then has the group kneel down to pray to God for the grasshopper's sake.
Nancy Pelosi & Barack Obama exclaim in an interview with Larry King that
the ant has gotten rich off the back of the grasshopper, and both call
for an immediate tax hike on the ant to make him pay his fair

Finally, the EEOC drafts the Economic Equity &
Anti-Grasshopper Act retroactive to the beginning of the summer
The ant is fined for failing to hire a proportionate number of
green bugs and, having nothing left to pay his retroactive taxes, his
home is confiscated by the government.

The story ends as we see the grasshopper finishing up the last bits of the ant's food while the government house he is in, which just happens to be the ant's old house, crumbles around him because he doesn't maintain it.

The ant has disappeared in the snow.

The grasshopper is found dead in a drug related incident and the
house, now abandoned, is taken over by a gang of spiders who terrorize
the once peaceful neighborhood.

Hope Beyond...

Dancing beyond the shadows
Like the glow beyond the stars
You wait, patiently;
The beat beyond my heart
Trying to be heard
In the world's thunderous noise;
I can feel you
But can't see you
A dream reaching to reality,
A hand waiting to be held
Just beyond the shadows
You wait, patiently.

-- Emmanuel Wendt-Williams

Friday, January 23, 2009

Lost at Sea.

Lost amidst a sea of darkness,
Turbulent waves rise and fall
A sailing ship with no guidance
Soon to be buried beneath it all.
Shadowy promises formed a broken alliance
And the stormy clouds spelled betrayal
Failed friends created this lone venture,
An exiled ship with no avail.
Bound to nothing but kind gestures
This sole ship, enslaved to the sea
Yet it's sails still rise with hope
Of a brighter day and a gentler breeze.

by Emmanuel Wendt-Williams

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Is there a prayer?

Mom says to pray all the time, every day; pray in times of need, pray in times of grief, pray in times of gratitude, pray in happy times and sad times and those times when you just don't always know what to do.

I might be losing hope, but I'll never lose a prayer...

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Testing, Testing.

So I've been on and off on the whole blogging thing. I'm sorry but the internet doesn't run my life (not all of it, anyway! lol). Since I've been off for quite a while I'm going to try and make this one count (as in, longer than two paragraphs).

Well, the Spring Semester 09 has officially started and I'm hoping to do as great as I did (academically speaking) as the past Fall Semester. My class schedule is kind to speak. I really enjoy it (much to the envy of others lol) not to have classes on Mondays and Fridays. However, I will need this much free time because I will be busy with academics, work and especially, CUH's Awakening Retreat. Its going to be a challenge but I hope and pray things work out. I'm really(x1000000) trying to manage my time (and money) well this semester. In terms of classes... so far they seem interesting and challenging. I'm taking three Upper Division English courses and two Upper Division CJ courses... so its no surprise that I will have TONS of papers to write this semester and TONS of research to do. YAY ME =/ Since I'm on the topic of academics, I'm extremely praying and hoping that I get picked for an Internship with the DNC (Democratic National Committee) during the summer. I'm applying through a program they are offering through the community college back home and although I know several young and talent Samoan students also want this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, I WANT IT HELLA BAD!! [venting continued in second paragraph]

I mean, AN INTERNSHIP AT THE NATIONS CAPITAL WITH THE PARTY IN POWER ANNNND WITH SEVERAL OF OUR COUNTRY'S MOST INFLUENTIAL LEADERS (not to mention the soon-to-be-President Barrack Obama)... how could someone NOT want it? This is the opportunity I've been waiting for to go out there and really get myself involved with Politics (which, if you don't know right now, I'm really passionate about) and to get the experience I need and also awesome references if I plan to get into Law School someday. Anyway, its obvious I'm uberExcited about this and I'm praying I get it... hopefully my luck turns.

Now, on to some other stuff that's been on my mind since yall are so eager to know. hahaha =/

So yeah, I am super psyched about this semester and all but I can't help but feel stuck because I still haven't a place to call my own. Over the break I had friends who said they could pull through and help me but little by little shit started to fall through, and before you know it, I'm stuck with my bags packed (AGAIN!), my ass on someone else's couch and all my hopes nearly drained completely. I am extremely truly a billion times a billion times grateful for the friends who've opened their doors and made available their beds, futons and floors (HK FOR LIFE! lol) for me to crash on. I really don't know where I'd be if I didn't have such great friends and nothing can truly match how in debt I am to all of you =]

Every night I go to sleep I pray I wake up from this mess. I mean, the way things were are going to stay that way, and I'm trying to let go and force myself to move on but shit... life just isn't letting me up these days. And some people have asked why I just don't go get my own place. Well, I wish it were that easy. I work a Part-time job with minimum wage, which by the way doesn't even give me a lot of hours, so my paycheck hardly makes it past the 200 mark. My parents don't make all that much and I know they would help me out, but I'd rather that money go to helping my little brother get into a top college because he's worked extremely hard all his life to deserve it; go to helping my sister take care of my awesomest-bestest nephew in the world so she can concentrate on school and work; go to help keeping up the house and the acres of land we own and live on because no one else is there to do it, because my siblings and I are away from home; go to my parent's health care.... I don't have rich uncles, aunties, god-parents or relatives that I can call or depend on...hands-down-truth-out, I don't have the money or the means to get my own place. All I have is a prayer and a hope for miracles...

Five years from now, I'm hoping to look back on this whole situation and find myself smiling... because I made it through. Ironically, its the hope of the future I want that keeps me going in the present. Sure, I thought about giving up, but what good would that be to me? Giving up isn't an option, because options give you choices. If I give up, what choice would I have next?

Ah well, I guess life is just testing, testing, testing me... and damn I hope I pass with flying colors... or at least a bed. LOL.

Well, I think this blog is long enough to entertain you until my return... in week or two. LOL.

peace easy.

Monday, January 12, 2009

I don't know why

But life sucks. Well, not all of it, but for right now, a whole lot of it sucks for me. And just when I thought things were going to get better.... I'm getting tired of being let down by people and I'm coming to realize to trust myself with myself more than I trust others. What I think? Out of the 6 Billion human beings in this world, I probably only trust like... 0.00001 percent of them or something like that. Humans are self-centered by nature. Sure, there are a few kind souls out there, but for the most part, its every man/woman for himself/herself. Well, its about time I played that game.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009


Well its 3:01AM on a Tuesday early early morning, and I'm at the house surfin the net, playing with gimp (this cool photo editing program, like photoshop but its FREE :]), downloading music, watching t.v. and eating frosting, chips and cold pizza. I would be working, but those fxckers decreased my hours so I only work 4 fxcking hours this whole damn week. FOUR FXCKING HOURS?!?! Yeah, whatever. But hey, a job is a job and I'm lucky to even have one so I won't complain (except when I blog. LOL).

Hmmm... other than that the break seems to be going okay, except for one thing... SETTLING INTO MY OWN PLACE?! I made the mistake of relying on friends too much and now I'm not even sure where things are headed. I though shit would be settled already, but things just don't go according to plan, but I'm praying that the Lord help me and I know things will eventually (a word thats been stuck with me for a while) work out. God's delays are not denials, and I know that I am on the Lord's time.

As the second semester of my third year at Chaminade draws closers, I'm finding myself growing increasingly nervous. A lot of things will be happening this semester and I really don't know if I'm ready for it; if I have the time and energy, if I have the resources... downright I'm just nervous. Plus, I have several personal goals that I hope to reach this semester and well, lets just say that this one will be a RIDE (thats what she said)! I only pray to get through it with success and swiftness so that I can go home :)

Thats all for now, folks.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

First Poem of 2009

Here I go again with mindless writing :)

Breaking Dawn

The sweet caress of sunlight
Piercing the darkened clouds
Breaking the unbreakable darkness
A sudden miracle,
Glinting in the dew of dawn
Like diamonds from the sky
Upon the blades of grass
Bathing in ethereal beauty
Transformed, suddenly,
into jewels from heaven;
And in this moment
They've become the stars
They've become like rays of light
And were this moment to last forever
These blades of grass
Would become immortal;
As I am grass
And you are my sunlight
How I wish this moment would last forever.