Untitled again.

This pain, it bleeds
uncontrollably;
an open wound, it remains
exposed to the tides;
remnants of
blood, salt and water;
remnants of
breath, pain and life;
remnants of
a heartache that
the tides can't wash away,
the pain won't go away.

-- Emmanuel Wendt-Wiliams

Rock rules!

So its 3:56am and I'm surfing MySpace when I come across this bulletin posted by my cousin. I love it so much I decided to blog it. Its hilarious!

"I UNDER​STAND​ THAT SCISS​ORS CAN BEAT PAPER​ AND I GET HOW ROCK CAN BEAT SCISS​ORS,​ BUT THERE​'​S NO FUCKI​NG WAY PAPER​ CAN BEAT ROCK.​ IS PAPER​ SUPPO​SED TO MAGIC​ALLY WRAP AROUN​D A ROCK,​ LEAVI​NG IT IMMOB​ILE?​ WHY THE HELL CAN'​T PAPER​ DO THIS TO SCISS​ORS?​ SCREW​ SCISS​ORS,​ WHY CAN'​T PAPER​ DO THIS TO PEOPL​E?​ WHY AREN'​T SHEET​S OF COLLE​GE-​RULED​ NOTEB​OOK PAPER​ CONST​ANTLY​ SUFFO​CATIN​G STUDE​NTS AS THEY ATTEM​PT TO TAKE NOTES​ IN CLASS​?​ I'LL TELL YOU WHY, BECAU​SE PAPER​ CAN'​T BEAT ANYBO​DY,​ A ROCK WOULD​ TEAR THAT SHIT UP IN TWO SECON​DS.​ WHEN I PLAY ROCK/​PAPER​/​SCISS​ORS I ALWAY​S CHOOS​E ROCK.​ THEN WHEN SOMEB​ODY CLAIM​S TO HAVE BEATE​N ME WITH THEIR​ PAPER​ I PUNCH​ THEM IN THE THROA​T WITH MY ALREA​DY CLENC​HED FIST AND SAY "OH SHIT I'M SORRY​.​ I THOUG​HT PAPER​ WOULD​ PROTE​CT YOU, STUPI​D-​FUCK.​"

I seriously LMAO at this one. Gives me a good reason to punch someone when I play this game again. Hahaha

Peace|Easy

Moderation in Progression...

So its another blog/spiel about my life blah blah blah. Its my blog and I'll write what I want, gumdammit! :] Anyway, did I mention I'm settling in? Yeah, it feels good to have a place and bed to call your own. Everyone needs a home away from home, and I've found mine :) However, having finally acquired a place, I feel even more pressure; the pressure of having to be super-extra-duper-good-careful with how I handle my finances. The almighty dollar and I have a love/hate relationship. Before, when I was an RA, I was living the life (well, at least I thought so). I lived and ate for free, and every semester I got back huge sums of refund checks which made up for the meager checks I got for being an RA. I spent the money as I saw fit and now that I look back at it, I realize what an IDIOT I've been.

Now, I work one job, paying about minimum wage, and on top of a phone bill, I have rent and upkeep expenses to deal with. Of course, the obvious solution would be to go out and get another job, but I can't due to how busy I am this semester. And asking the parentals for money is out of the question for me; I hate that option. They have their own worries to deal with and I refuse to be one of them.

My only available avenue? Cut back. I'm remembering a phrase my mom always used to say when, as I kid, I would spend and want what I didn't need nor have. In Samoan she would lecture: "Ola fa'a tagata mativa." In English: "Live like a poor person." My mom lived and breathed that motto. She would only buy what we needed and spend wisely what we had, and on occasion, there would be a treat. Growing up, my siblings and I got the best of what we needed and if we wanted something, we had to work for it ourselves. My mom's life is all about budgeting and prioritizing; always making sure you have enough for all the needs before you think about what you want.

So that what I'm going to do. Cut back on what I don't need and start getting my finances in order. Its moderation in progression... or maybe I'll continue my progression with the practice of moderation. Haha. I think its true when they said too much of a good thing can be bad... in this case, money. haha.

Who knew growing up would be so difficult... and come in so many stages! lol

I'm out.

peace|easy

Hi, Haters!

So I've recently learned that my life is the subject of much gossip on foul tongues. People are funny because they think they're bring you down when they're actually fueling the fire for your way up. So attention, attention... HI, HATERS! Heres a few words of encouragement for you all:

I'm the cente​r of your atten​tion,​
The disru​ption​ to your celeb​ratio​n
What I live is what you menti​on
'Cuz while​ I shine​ you'​re in reten​tion;​
Your life has no forma​tion
It revol​ves aroun​d defam​ation​
So take a look I'm in accel​erati​on
There​s no stopp​ing my eleva​tion
'Cuz while​ you hate,​ I'm neari​ng perfe​ction​.​

-- Emman​uel Wendt​-​Willi​ams
talk yo shit & live your lies;​ you can'​t stop me, I'm on the rise!​

Stupid Cupid,

This is just a funny pic I found on another blog and I thought it would be cool to repost in lieu to this Valentines Holiday. Of course, I myself am not too big on this lovey-dovey holiday, but that doesn't mean I should rain on everyone else's parade, right? Haha. Maybe not...

Anyway, for everyone out there who has something special worth celebrating, more power to ya! Just don't f**ck it up. For everyone else, lets just get through this ONE day with all this stupid cupid crap (lol) and then get on with our lives.

Enjoy your day of chocolates, roses, scented candles and kinky lingerie! Haha.

Peace | Easy.

"Don't Interrupt.... Rude!"

Haha. Okay, so this whole week I've been a spiel about this clip. I know, I know, its an old one, but its HILAROUS. Especially when you're stuck in a three hour class texting jokes, quoting from this clip... LOL. So yeah, here it is. The infamous Bonquiqui :)



anty-wayz... this was a good week... well, kind of. I've been stressing out about school and stuff, and the reality is that its about to get tougher! I know I've been slacking but with hard work, concentration and an extreme amount of will, I can do it :) Hahaha.

Aight. Back to the books... so "Don't interrupt... RUDE!"

lol. I love it!

Late night boredom/Freeway drama

Okay, so I'm laying on my bed in my apartment, racking my brain on what the hell I'm going to write on for my paper due in a few hours and I just can't stop looking out my window... the view: the freeway of course. Now, most people would kill for a seaside/mountainside view, but I personally love the freeway; I mean, with all the cars and the noise and the excitement... I don't know, I guess I'm weird like that. LOL.

So anyway, as I was trying to research ideas for this damn paper (which as of now is still unwritten lol) I see cops pull over this car as it was trying to make its way onto the freeway. They've been there for about 30 minutes already and I managed to snap a few pics with my phone-cam. LOL. I'm excited! I'm seeing law enforcement in action! haha.

Here are the pics. The white circles indicate the car and the police car. A few mintues after I took these pics, another police car pulled by, and they were there for another 15 minutes before they all left. Hmmm... I wonder what the guy driving the car did...? haha!





And just in case you're wondering, heres a view during the day. Isn't it awesome! haha!



Alrighty... back to being studious (at 2:45am)! If anymore freeway drama happens I'll be sure to let you know! haha!

peace|easy.

Stress in, Stress out!

Ok, so finally having an apartment is cool... I mean, its what I've been waiting for since... well, since I haven't had a place to stay. But now I have to worry about rent and other expenses that come with such a living. But I have a job, so no big, right? Well, not in my case! Because of school work and the extra-curricular responsibility that I decided to take on this semester, I had to cut back on work hours... and I mean HELLA cut back. I've been trying to find a job on campus but there hasn't been word yet, most likely because of my RA incident.... damn f**ks!

So yeah. I'm stressing. You might not see it everyday, but I am. And what I don't get is that I KNOW shit is piling up but I just can't seem to get stuff done until the last minute... maybe its because I've always done things that way but now that won't fly.

Just when I thought things were getting better, life throws a curve ball at me.

Dammit.

Move Along,

Its finally happened. I have my own place! It feels like everything has come full circle... coming from having no place, and crashing at friend's houses and couches and available beds, to finally... finally having one of my own (even if I do share it with roommates LOL). You can't believe how relieving it is to have a home; a place you can call your own... your own bed, your own closet, your own room (with a roommated lol) to put all your shit in... its awesome! Its been a bit over five months that I've been more or less "homeless." I've been living off the kindness of friends and loved ones and I hope someday I can repay them for picking me up in my lowest hour. And although the place is empty (besides an airbed lol), the internet sucks and theres no TV... its still my own. I finally realize that all I used to take for granted meant so much more than I made it out to be :]

On another note... this semester is going to be CRAZY! Like, busy crazy! Sometimes I wonder if I put too much on my plate. Between work and school alone I hardly find any free time, and now that I'm Rector of Chaminade's awakening retreat, I'm beginning to realize just how big of a job its going to be. Like my predecessors before me said, "Its going to take over your life," and they weren't lying! This semester is going to be hectic, and I'm going to try and give 110% to my academics, to awakening and to just basically moving my life FORWARD.

Pray for me yall :)

OneLove.

Mind Over Matter.

So yeah, as mundane and overplayed as it may sound, the Superbowl was awesome! Even though I had to hear it on the radio at work, it was nevertheless an exciting game. I knew I should've cop'd a Troy Polamalu jersey with my 30% off discount... haha.

Anyway, the past few days (weeks?) have been... whatever. I find myself procrastinating more and more and losing motivation and momentum when I should be building up. I mean, this semester is going to be a challenge to all my self dimensions and I am only beginning to realize that I might not be as ready as I thought I was.

Other than that, life seems to be rolling along. I'm still trying to settle in and things are really looking on the sunny-side-up... hopefully this doesn't end in a flop.

I'd like to end with one statement: TAXES SUCK!! >=(